Ranbir Kapoor recalls having a panic attack when doctor said father Rishi Kapoor was going to die soon; reveals not crying after his demise

Losing parents or a parent can be difficult for many. However, actor Ranbir Kapoor revealed that he didn’t cry after his father Rishi Kapoor passed away. But he had a panic attack when the doctor informed him that his father was going to die anytime soon. He was unable to express and Ranbir revealed not grieving or understanding the loss.

Ranbir Kapoor spoke about father Rishi Kapoor’s death

In a recent podcast with Nikhil Kamath, the Animal actor said, “I stopped crying very early on. I didn’t even cry when my father passed away. When I was spending the night at the hospital, the doctor told me, ‘This is his last night, he is going to go anytime soon,’ I remember going up to the room and had a panic attack. I didn’t know how to express myself, there was too much happening that was to take. But I don’t think I have grieved or understood the loss. Losing one of the parents is a very big moment.”

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Ranbir reveals he feels guilty about his relationship with late father

During the conversation, Kapoor also mentioned feeling guilty of not letting go of the distance between the two. He said, “I felt as much guilt as he felt when he was going away because that one year that we spent together during the treatment, he often spoke about that. One day, he came to my room and started crying and he never showed that kind of weakness to me. It was awkward for me l because I didn’t know if I should go hold him, should hug him and I really realised the distance. And I feel guilty that I didn’t have the grace to let go of the distance or the glass between us and go and hug him and give him some love.”

Rishi Kapoor passed away on April 30, 2020, after battling blood cancer.

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