EXCLUSIVE: Rashmika Mandanna opens up about her emotional lows: There were sleepless nights, cried myself to sleep

Rashmika Mandanna is one of the most sought-after actors. She is not just popular down the South, but also in Bollywood. She is yet to make her Bollywood debut, but the actress is already the talk of the town. Though Rashmika is a successful actor, in the initial stage of her career it was not easy for her. She was subjected to trolling and body shaming. But she continued to wear that smile on her face, hiding all the pain and anguish. She also opened up dealing with several emotional upheavals in life, battling anxiety, having sleepless nights in an episode of Bollywood Bubble’s Her Story Season 2.

Rashmika said that she had sleepless when she cried. “There were sleepless nights, like end number of nights I had cried myself to sleep. I would just look at something and get lost. It’s been hard. I think in 365 days, without exaggerating I think 100-150 days, I was crying myself to sleep,” said the Dear Comrade actor.

She added, “People can’t really tell that you are not fine when you are just smiling and saying ‘I am fine’ but you are not fine. That’s because you don’t want to worry the other person. I know how it feels but what can you do. This is something I think I have just learned to deal with. You can’t talk to your parents because you don’t want to stress them out. You can’t talk to your friends because you don’t want to stress them out. So, I think of my other people more than myself. Right now, thank God for my puppy because that’s the only living thing I cry in front of. I am not good at talking about my emotions.”

When asked about how she deals with emotional lows and what she fears or haunts her, Rashmika said, “One thing my mom has always told me is ‘Never show the weak side of you to the world’. This is one thing she has been saying since I was a child and I think somehow it is just in my brain.”

She further said, “I have fear of emotions and am an extremist. If I give my heart to somebody, it’s just I give it completely. I don’t know the boundary, just give everything. I am scared of that. I had bad experience in trusting people. So, now trusting has also become an issue for me. Self-doubt is an issue, loving people too much is also an issue. It’s just endless. Feeling emotions is one of my most nerve-wracking things I am scared of and what if that one person doesn’t understand me completely.”

You can watch the full interview here.

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