EXCLUSIVE: I was scared to laugh: Meghana Raj Sarja on dealing with judgement post husband Chiranjeevi Sarja’s death

Chiranjeevi Sarja passed away in 2020. Meghana Raj Sarja, wife of late Chiranjeevi Sarja, lost him while she was pregnant with their first child. Meghana Raj Sarja went though a hard time. Now, in an exclusive interview with Bollywood Bubble for XtraOrdinary You season 2, Meghana opened up about battling grief and dealing with judgement post Chiranjeevi’s death. The actress revealed she was scared to laugh in fear of getting judged after losing husband Chiranjeevi Sarja.

Talking about dealing with grief and judgement, Meghana shared, “There have been people who have come up to me and expected me to process it, it’s their expectations of how I should be processing it and it’s not going to happen like that. Because you know, I don’t think I am genetically like that or biologically made in a certain way to act according to what they think is right. There is a certain way I will want to deal with it. And there is a certain way maybe my brother-in-law would want to deal with it. So, there are so many people who’ve come up to me and said ‘I don’t think it has affected any other family member that much’. I am like you’ll never know because it’s not according to your standard of how they should be reacting to it.”

 

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She added, “There are times when I wanted to laugh out loud and I was very scared thinking ok people are going to judge me if I laugh loudly. They are going to ask me ‘Oh so, that’s it, done now over you’re calm and peaceful.’ Can you imagine that? I was really scared.”

While talking about sympathy, Meghana shared, “There have also been people who have said she has everything in life then why are you showing her sympathy? I mean, it is nice to know that I do have, you know, a good family backing. I do have a comfortable life but that doesn’t mean I’m not human, that doesn’t mean that my relationship is fake, that doesn’t mean that I can’t get hurt. How can people even make such comments I don’t understand.”

During the conversation, Meghana also opened up about being body-shamed during initial days of her career.

Check out the entire conversation here-

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